Moving

Hi fellow bloggers... So about a week ago I decided that I am going to move back to San Francisco and hit the reset button on life. There are a couple reasons for this move, but I think most important it's what I need right now in my life. I want to be the same happy Kelley again and not have to put on the "happy" face. There have been multiple times in my life that I've perfected this happy face and started to believe myself that I was happy, yet deep down inside I knew that I wasn't. Hence the reason for moving back to the once place that I last knew I was happiest, the place I left my heart at, San Francisco.





Not sure how long I will actually be in San Francisco for, but I do know that I have the best family and friends there to help me get back to the Kelley that I want to be. The plan right now is to move home and then move up to the Santa Rosa area. I've always loved that area and has everything that I need. Plus I hope to be moving with my awesome cousin, Kassidy and us together always means for a good time!

I realized the other day that in my head I had the next 5+ years mapped out and that in reality nothing in my head is coming to true, and that I'm prefectly at peace with that. There have been countless nights of tossing and turning just pondering what I wanted and didn't want. I still don't know exactly what I do want, but each day I learn a little more.



Well that's all for now.. til next time!

Shattered Pieces = Beautiful Beginning

Today I came across a blog that really got me thinking it said:

"I want you to know, no matter how badly your dream or your heart feels stattered, know that in those shattered pieces, is where the most beautiful treasures are waiting to make your heart sparkle! Many times hearts feel shattered, but in that broken-ness, just might be the sparkle to shine light on a new love, a new dream, a new hope" - Kandee Johnson

This couldn't be more true for my life today. I feel as if I am so broken down and ready for my sparkle to shine through. I've always believed that everything happens for a reason and God will only give you as much as you can handle. It is hard to see what the reason for that thing happening will be but in the end it will all work out. I am ready to glue my shattered pieces back together and start to make a beautiful masterpiece.

Well that's all I have to say for now.. Until next time, toodles!

Putting the Serenity Prayer to Use

Changes come and go, sometimes all at once and I think that's the hardest part with figuring out what to do. Growing up there was a crocheted picture on the wall with the words:



God, grant me the serenity

To accept the things I cannot change

Courage to change the things I can;

And wisdom to know the difference.



I think that I've said this everyday for the past two weeks and it's just the honest truth. There is no use in trying to accept that change is happening and when you are in a position where you know something needs to change, changing it may be one of the hardest things you have to do. I've realized that change is really only short-term because after a couple days/weeks/months the change that took place is just part of your life and almost just the routine.



A change that I definetly do not want to accept is my sleeping habits. I used to be such a sound sleeper at night and wake up feeling refreshed in the morning, even if it was just a couple hours that I got. Now it seems that I wake up constantly during the night and I wake up feeling like I never even slept. I've tried different pillows, using more pillows or less. Tried sleeping on the other side of the bed. Sleeping in different positions, and so far nothing is working. I thought it may just be the change of not sharing the bed, but when I had a night to myself I slept great because I didn't have to worry about snoring or someone kicking me in the middle of the night. But something needs to change soon, any suggestions?




At work dogs a couple dogs were coming in and just looked as exhausted as I am. Here's a cute picture of Harley (Boxer) and Heinrich (Great Dane). Oh how I wish I could just curl up and sleep right now, maybe later, and hopefully tonight!

The First of More to Come!

Hello there Blog World!! For quite some time I've contemplated on writing a public blog so here it finally is. I'm still not sure what exactly I will be writing about, but right now I'll just be writing about current things going on with me. Hopefully as time goes on this blog will take its own course and will turn out just the way it's meant to be. =)

This year as been full of changes for me. I've accomplished a huge goal in my life, which was to get a Bachelor's degree. Ironically I started out my time at Sac State with the lowest grades I've ever gotten and when I graduated it was with Honors.

All that hard work and finding my niche was truly key. But what's next? I've always known that I've wanted to work with kids but not sure how I want to accomplish this. So many options out there, just have to figure out what is right for me.

Another big change for me is that this is the first time I've been single since moving to Sacramento. This is new to me, but also very liberating. I feel like I've been living my life for other people for awhile now and it's now time that I live it for myself. Now that I don't have much holding me in Sacramento, I'm not sure where I will go from here. Will I be moving? If so, where? Will I be finding a new job? If so, what kind of job? What does the future hold? I really wish I knew the answers to these questions but if I did, life would be pretty boring.

This year has already had so many changes, and I know there will be many more to come. Change is scary but all I can do is take one day at a time. I'm very fortuante to be surrounded by great family and friends who are there to support and cheer me on with whatever I'm doing. I look forward to this next chapter in my life and feel like this blog will help me to see my growth and allow the people around me to see what I'm up to.